Writing a weblog is very funny. I write and I know only I know about it. But also there is a chance that someone else reads it. It is a strange feelling.
I won a Ticket for Sima Bina Concert today which made me really happy. I wanted to go there and it was a perfect gift in this hard week that I had.

It was the National Lab Week. It was fun. We had some special food every day and all the employee were kind of happy.
Lots of food and lots of fun.
But, I am still so tired. As usual nothing makes me happy and I am struggeling with the philosophy of my life. There is one thing I am sure about it though; I don't like myself now. This is not whom I meant to be and this is not why I have been fighting for the last 14 years.
If my life meant to be this meaningless, why I went through this much trouble. Why this much studying? Why this much education?
Where am I now? What good am I doing?

I see different websites and I think why I am not keeping my website up-to-date? Do I shy? Do I hesitate to write about my private life? Am I affraid of showing the real face of my life?
I don't know. I wish I was stronger. I wish I were not where I am now. I feel like my potentials and my abilities are wasted and I am not myself.
Life is so hard and I am tired all the time. Nothing makes me happy and I don't know what to do...