It was the National Lab Week. It was fun. We had some special food every day and all the employee were kind of happy.
Lots of food and lots of fun.
But, I am still so tired. As usual nothing makes me happy and I am struggeling with the philosophy of my life. There is one thing I am sure about it though; I don't like myself now. This is not whom I meant to be and this is not why I have been fighting for the last 14 years.
If my life meant to be this meaningless, why I went through this much trouble. Why this much studying? Why this much education?
Where am I now? What good am I doing?